Big Problem!!

 Hello there! 
Me again for so long not available to update this blog... *it has been a year already*
Sorry dear friend ~ *even though i know that i didn't have so many friend...*
but this blog is quite a very good friend for me...

Actually... i've quit my job a few months ago... 
but then i've realized that i've made such a very wrong decision... n now, i've regretted my action n faced such a big depression in my live...

For unknown reason, now i'm avoiding myself from meeting n contacting anyone i knew from my previous workplace... They must think that i've already forgotten them but actually i'm really missing them so much... huhuuu  i wish i could tell them the truth but i feel very ashamed with my ownself now... i'm also losing confident of facing lots of people out there including all my possible interviewers...So, yes now u knew... i'm still looking for a new job which very much difficult for me to get one... n because of that, i really feel myself has become a burden n a trouble to every single person around me now... how sad i've become... i'm such a helpless n pathetic person... huhuu... can u really still accept me my Love?? 
i really don't know what else to do... i really have no idea that its really-really this hard to find n get a job even though u're a degree holder... i've just realize now that the competition is very challenging out there which is, it wasn't easy for u to fight for... even u're good, u're still not good enough... well, this job matter is really bothering me... it is really a huge problem that i'm facing right now!! which also affecting all my others relationship...i'm really sorry for all of them... especially for my Love... please forgive me all of u... i would never could ask for your understanding because u all didn't even know this... so, all i can ask for is just a forgiveness... i'm truly sorry...
n i'm also sorry because this time i'm writing all this in English language so if there are many grammar mistake, i'm really sorry... my bad English!! it has been so long that i'm not using an English writing which i'm really-really bad on it... hahaaa...*do i really feel bad about this still laughing  not a big deal i guess*

So, that all my update for now...
Hopefully, i can solve this big problem of mine soon!! 
Wish me luck, k!!
Maybe i'll update about my new job after this...
Till then, Bye!!

DIA

/hihi Assalamualaikum...
Lame dh xupdate...
Seriously, mmg xde mase sgt...
Tp hari nie terase nk update... /hmm

Actually aku just nk crite pasal 'DIA' yg tiba2 muncul dlm hidup aku...
Mmg terasa pantas masa berlalu sbb skrg 'DIA' dh jd someone yg special dlm hidup aku smpi aku pn terasa mcm xleh hidup tnpa 'DIA'... :"> poyo x, poyo x... :P

Aku xlehlaa nk kata 'DIA' nie adalah jodoh aku sbb aku pn xtau... :| tp aku hnya mmpu berdoa agar tuhan permudahkn segalanya utk aku andai 'DIA' yg mmg tuhan tentukn utkku... ;)

Aku hrp tuhan xberikn 'DIA' hadir dlm hidup aku utk sementara... sbb aku bersyukur dipertemukn dgn 'DIA' nie sgt2 smpi aku rse takut akn kehilangan 'DIA'... ape pn aturan tuhan aku mmg xkn tahu... O:-)

InsyaAllah... Daa... /bye

Tokki 'toki'

Salam Semua...
Aku prnah ckp nk cite psl 'toki' sbb dia ialah sumber inspirasi aku utk trus kje kat sni kn.. tp aku rse, dia xbleh trus jdi sumber inspirasi aku lg dh.. sbb aku mmg nk sgt tukar kje.. aku ske org2 kat sni.. aku bleh kate mmg baik sgt.. tp xlah smpi aku xbleh nk angkat kaki langsungkn!!

Aku tgh tunggu mase je..  heharap adelah rezeki aku nk kje tmpt lain!!
Lg pn toki tue.. dia xprnah perasan aku pn.. n dia pn mcm xnmpk akn kewujudan aku kat sni..
kekdg aku rase bkn dia je yg xnmpk, tp smua org pn xnmpk... sedehkn..

Dulu aku mmg excited bila dpt jmpa toki tue kat office tp skrg aku rse xlah excited gile2 lg sbb dia pn susah sbnrnye nk nmpk muke.. ye lah dia kje ade shift.. lainlah aku kn.. 2 minggu sekali dia malam and then 2 minggu berikutnye siang.. pastu mcm tue lah seterusnye...tmbahan lg kn dia byk kje bhgian production n aku plak byk dok kat office.. cmne nk nmpk slalu, kn... sbb tue bile dpt jmpe rse seronok sgt!!

Tp aku xmahulah terlalu ske.. nnt aku sndiri merana.. biarlah mase mnentukn sgalanya... ceh, cool lah sgt!
tp still aku xbleh nk nafikn aku mmg suke gile2 n happy gile2 stiap kali aku dpt lihat dia even hnya sesaat aku nmpk kelibat dia... gile dh ke aku nie  masalah tau klu dh smpi thap menggila cmnie... better control sket ape yg aku rse.. aku xske nk kecewa... dn aku pn nk tinggalkn dia pn... hehee  nk kje tmpt lain laa kate kn... KATA KAU!! hahahhaaa 

'toki'  well mungkin ade yg tertnya2... "toki tue ape mksudnye??"
okay, toki tue mksudnye arnab dlm bahasa melayu.. n toki tue aku amek drpd perkataan korea...
knape?? 
sbb dia putih sgt n mcm alim2 aku rse... cm suci je gitu...
kebetulan aku pernah stalker dia n dia gne display picture dia ngan  seekor arnab...
n aku plak ske sgt arnab putih!!
jd larh gelaran utk dia 'toki' iaitu arnab dlm bhsa melayu nye...
ape2 je lah..!! cmtue baru sng sket aku nk bahasa kn dia... 
dh la.. stakat itu je cite aku sket2 psl toki nie..
sbnrnye nk cite drpd mula masa aku jmpe dia.. tp rse nnt aku jd sasau plak nk fkirkn dia tue...
heheee... daaa.......

Emoticon ;)

Hyebertemu lg kte di dlm mimpi.. hehee
Hri nie sje je nk mention, aku sdg addicted pd emoticon.. especially yg aku bleh gne kat blog 
Kat bawah nie aku nk cube gne kn emoticon2 yg aku rembat drpd yahoo mail...
kte tgk jd ke tidak~

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