Big Problem!!

 Hello there! 
Me again for so long not available to update this blog... *it has been a year already*
Sorry dear friend ~ *even though i know that i didn't have so many friend...*
but this blog is quite a very good friend for me...

Actually... i've quit my job a few months ago... 
but then i've realized that i've made such a very wrong decision... n now, i've regretted my action n faced such a big depression in my live...

For unknown reason, now i'm avoiding myself from meeting n contacting anyone i knew from my previous workplace... They must think that i've already forgotten them but actually i'm really missing them so much... huhuuu  i wish i could tell them the truth but i feel very ashamed with my ownself now... i'm also losing confident of facing lots of people out there including all my possible interviewers...So, yes now u knew... i'm still looking for a new job which very much difficult for me to get one... n because of that, i really feel myself has become a burden n a trouble to every single person around me now... how sad i've become... i'm such a helpless n pathetic person... huhuu... can u really still accept me my Love?? 
i really don't know what else to do... i really have no idea that its really-really this hard to find n get a job even though u're a degree holder... i've just realize now that the competition is very challenging out there which is, it wasn't easy for u to fight for... even u're good, u're still not good enough... well, this job matter is really bothering me... it is really a huge problem that i'm facing right now!! which also affecting all my others relationship...i'm really sorry for all of them... especially for my Love... please forgive me all of u... i would never could ask for your understanding because u all didn't even know this... so, all i can ask for is just a forgiveness... i'm truly sorry...
n i'm also sorry because this time i'm writing all this in English language so if there are many grammar mistake, i'm really sorry... my bad English!! it has been so long that i'm not using an English writing which i'm really-really bad on it... hahaaa...*do i really feel bad about this still laughing  not a big deal i guess*

So, that all my update for now...
Hopefully, i can solve this big problem of mine soon!! 
Wish me luck, k!!
Maybe i'll update about my new job after this...
Till then, Bye!!